Just A Day

I’ve been feeling extremely sad, frustrated, exhausted and hopeless recently. This whole motherhood thing has become too much to handle already. I feel like I’m exerting so much effort and what do I get in return? My toddler’s tantrums and never ending whining, a clingy 8-month old who won’t let me leave his side even just to pee (seriously!), and a husband who, in the middle of all this ruckus , has to leave me to take control because of the growing demand of his work.

What makes me feel even worse is seeing photos of my friends having fun, photos of fellow moms doing crafts, having their nails done and going on dates with their husbands. Where am I? I’m home with our two kids–taking care of them and earning a living for them.

I know, I know. I should be happy because I am blessed with two wonderful angels kids and a husband who, despite his line of work, tries to be with us as much as he can. I won’t deny that. But really, it’s freakin’ hard.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m experiencing postpartum depression. Is it possible to have it eight months after giving birth? Or did I have it before and just successfully suppressed it… until now? Or maybe I’m really just going crazy?

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I wish I can have a day without worrying about the way I am mothering our kids, or if my husband is happy with me, or if I’m earning enough for the family from my freelance projects. And I wish I can have a day with no noisy tricycles and cars with extra loud speakers passing by our house, waking up my napping kids and turning them from peaceful angels into cranky, little monsters (true story).

Just a day. All I need is a day.

Kimberley Reyes

Kimberley Reyes is an Online Business Manager for entrepreneurs who are ready to get off the hamster wheel and step into their CEO shoes. On top of helping her clients get organized and scale their businesses, she is also happily busy raising her five kids with her firefighter husband.

This Post Has 5 Comments

  1. serene shikukeza

    Kim hugs to you. All we need is really just a day. I feel the same. I have also cuhreazzzzy moments like that. At least we are lucky husbands can be with us pero most of the time as well as call of duty they can’t. I also feel the kawawa everytime I see my nails broken and my hair extra dry na parang san mig dry lang. Hagardo versoza na talaga. I really miss being pampered kahit isang oras lang. Ang irritating moment tlga ang whining eh. Yung binigay mo na lahat iiyak parin at magrereklamo. Hay 🙁

    1. Mom On Duty

      Bulls eye ka doon sa lahat na binigay mo pero iiyak pa rin at magrereklamo. I think doon ako nagstart magbreakdown. Feeling ko hindi enough binibigay ko.

  2. Mai

    I’ve been going through the same dilemma these past few days (kaya don’t worry you’re not alone). And I can relate to that “not peeing alone” until now that my kids are 7,6, and 4. True indeed motherhood is a bittersweet experience.

    1. Mom On Duty

      Hay. It’s frustrating when I tell the kids to give me one moment, they just stare at me for a split second, then they go back to their whining and crying. Crazy!

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